i havent been here in maybe over a week.
my schedule has been a little hectic, as it has switched up a bit…
i had a pot and a half of coffee today and im starting more.
i dont have really anything to say.
i feel a bit spiritually disconnected. and in the practice of meditation, there seems (at least for me) to be times of great disconnect. and these are the times in which one really needs to push through to find that calm. i havent quite pushed through to find that calm. and i can feel myself growing more and more restless.
im sure the excess coffee and energy drinks dont help with an already overwhelming anxiety level.
we sometimes become quite muddied and clouded over thinking situations in our lives. to sort of alleviate pain we sometimes place blame, or victimize ourselves or just commit to a stance of misunderstanding what simply is.
our lives are perfect in this moment.
the universe is perfectly self correcting, and our thoughts shape our outlook.-therefore we have the power to view and mandate our destiny and future the way we think and see fit.
i must remember this.
as my dreamer mind would like to be in a different stage in my life-and as my angel heart would like to be clear across the world in a time zone 9 times different from the one im in….it is all perfect now.
i just want to leave you with a portion of my readings as of late…..
“God has no secrets. He does not lead you through a world of misery, waiting to tell you, at the journeys end, why He did this to you.”
well, thats a relief! now, i can trust that i believe in a force that supports my bliss. and does not view misery as valuable in my life. and above all, it is for me to choose my thoughts. it is up to me to choose what i view and make the choice on how i perceive my reality. because it is not Gods will to lead me through misery. my life is perfect in this very instant.
as this is what i choose to see.