late start…


how many commercials do we see just within a half an hour sitcom or watching a stint of the news that is related to some newly found disorder??? 

yesterday i saw a commercial on PAD (peripheral artery disease), and then one on “restless leg syndrome” wtf?? the PAD actually seems more legitimate that having a leg that wont sit still (a cure for that when i was a kid was a knock upside the head)-no meds needed.

but my point (there’s always a point)  is…


i literally get so depressed in the winter time. i hole up, i shut down, i feel like i can not function as an adult in our world most times. if its overcast i feel unsure. if its too windy? cant seem to take a risk. seriously. there is a name for this disorder.

SEASONAL AFFECTIVE DISORDER or (SAD) very fitting, right?!


well, i think it’s a crock of bullshit. or at least im choosing to not fall prey as another number in the statistic game of those out there that sign up to say theyre a victim.


in the winter, my life virtually turns upside down. i cant get/stay warm, i dont want to see friends or make an effort, and i eat, boy do i eat.

but cut to today-its literally 92 degrees here in LA. Beads of sweat are scurrying down my back  as if to jockey for pole position as i type away in my apartment. and what?

i have a smile on my face. i couldnt be happier. i love the heat, the sun, the warmth. it makes me strong. it makes me alert. it makes me want to.

so back to my bullshit theory…


maybe i shouldnt take a pill or set up “light therapy” sessions, but there is something to be said for the way i feel in both seasons. literally, im like 2 different people. i dont have the answer or a theory for that matter. i am still just going to choose to not believe in such a disorder.

i think it was said poetically this way, “mama, you can choose the rain, but i choose the sun….thats all i need to free myself…”- Nikka Costa


anyway, just thought i’d share with you.


i also want to acknowledge all the lives affected by the Columbine tragedy. it is not forgotten. the loved ones taken and the ones survived will not be forgotten.  






here we are at wednesday already…

so i went to texas over the weekend. my sister and i planned a surprise joined 60th birthday party for my ma and pa. 

i gotta say, it went off without a hitch, they loved it and it was so much fun. 

we ate mexican food, crawfish is in season, life down in the dirty couldnt be any sweeter.


im actually going home again in may so im going to thoroughly abuse the crawfish, molest it. the hotter the better.


now im back in LA. i gotta say i love this town, but cant help to feel my time with mama and daddy was too short this time. i already miss them like a kid going off to school for the first day. i know, i know,  im grown. but im still just a lil girl.


peace on hump day.



oh, thursday, i will smile in spite of your start…..

so, last night i go to dinner with friends. i left my car parked on the street in front of my place. after dinner, my friend’s dad says, “hey nat, don’t forget to move your car to your spot in the back”. so, i do so…

in the back, there are 3 designated parking spaces for the tenants of the 4-plex. well, one of the other tenants took it upon himself (again…i’ll get to that) to block the back parking area. so, now i cant get to my allotted space, AND there are to be only 3 cars back there. now, had i have been able to get my car back there it would’ve made 4. you do the math, the guy who blocked parked one of his extra cars back there.

so-i block everyone in. i’m not gonna risk getting my car broken into, dinged, banged on the street if i really dont have to.

cut to-i got the shittiest sleep because i anticipated them having to take their kids to school and i was still home because i had no early clients so i knew i would be awakened.

*i apologize if this is excruciatingly boring to you, but this has been an ongoing saga for me since i moved in in september. and if you dont live in california (LA to be exact) you may not be able to appreciate the importance of parking. it is like air. (well, that was a little dramatic, but almost that).

this place that i live in is so beautiful! i have french windows everywhere, hardwood floors, crown molding…it’s a 1920’s spanish-style’s not a castle by any means but its my home. i have made it my home. the energy is so good inside. and most importantly, i’m happy there. so it sucks to have even just one downside here because for me, it’s perfect.

there are 4 units and the other 3 are occupied by family members of the owners, then there’s lil ol’ me. so, by me blocking everyone in, i wasnt fucking over innocent by-standers. they all know the parking drama i have faced and are actually on my side. they have had to reprimand this grown man so many times regarding this parking.

now-i’m pissed.

as i go downstairs after he banged on my door at 7:35 this am, i decide to take pics with my phone.

he threatened to tow my car-good luck with all that.

hmmmm, now because of that, i’m not only dealing with parking issues that are unnecessary, i am now also being harassed for something he is at fault for…..

so, here’s where you come in. first off- if you rent and you have issues, you would be so amazed at the rights we have. the rules seem to have actually been put into place for our protection. so if you didnt know that, that’s your free nugget for today…

lastly, i just want to say thanks for being my documented audience today, thursday ,february 19th. you are my witnesses. thanks.

otherwise, my life is so sweet.



good morning!!!

here we are at friday again.

i am thankful for that, and many other things.

i really dont have too much to say other than i am stoked it’s raining outside. i’m chugging down my instant coffee trash that i love, and all is well with my world. things are problematic, there’s hunger, there’s incurable disease-we’ve already touched on the economy….but in this moment all is ok in my little world.

i get refreshed when i smell the rain wash through the los angeles soot and grime. there are a plethora of rhythms and sounds to mesmerize…every time it rains i give myself an allowance to take a beat and wash my head clean of all the negative, trifle shit that this world brings to us on a daily.

that’s what i’m doing right now in this moment. clearing out. and i wanted to share with you.

and, peace.